I'm trying to understand the concept of existence.
im too lazy and burntout to think clear thoughts. and actually put effort into this site 10/25
the derealization is getting worse every day and im so sleep deprived. I swear i was intelligent however im consisously observing my own mental degradation. I try so hard to correct myself, but my psychiatrist appointment keeps getting delayed :,,,)
i will do great things one day when I get better.
My Experience
For years I have struggled deeply with my mental health. I contribute this to my childhood as well as family lineage of unhealthy psyche and drug usage. Despite this, I am extremely self-aware and curious. By my curiosity and life events, I have experienced elements of various spectrums of conscience.